I am a GEEK!!

I try not to let my geek side show too often. I try to be the somewhat ordinary, some what average looking person I, sometimes am. But every so often something comes along so freakin’ cool that the Geek has to be let out. Now I usually don’t rave about new game consoles coming out because honestly most days I would take the original NES or Super NES over the X-Box or Playstation any day, probably more so because I have always been a Nintendo girl at heart. But with the unknown release of possibly the coolest system since…ever drawing nearer I have been doing research. The Wii released by Nintendo will retail for no more than $250 but they are expecting it to sell for around $170 but of course there are no final words on the price yet. Now with the release of the Wii comes the release of one of my greatest heroes newest game…Zelda: Twilight Princess!!!

Now, I don’t know how much of my readers out there are gamers, I should probably expect all of them to be, but on the off chance that there are some people out there who have no clue about the Wii, which is honestly very sad for you, honestly. The controls on the system are amazing. It is a break from the everyday ordinary controller. It is a wireless, freehand controller.
“The Wii Remote frees you from cords and excessive, complicated buttons without sacrificing gameplay depth. The motion sensors contained within the Wii Remote and the Nunchuk controller add totally new interactions to existing games while opening doors for new genres. Wii makes your senses come alive!”
When I first heard that they were releasing Twilight Princess for Wii I imagined swinging the Wii controller as if it were actually the Master Sword. One of the first news releases stated that it wasn’t going to be and yes, I was kind of heart broken at the fact. But have no fear! It looks like Nintendo has made some tweaks to the controls for Twilight Princess Wii since E3. IGN is reporting that the biggest change to the controls is that now you will be swinging your Wiimote as if it were Link’s sword. I am super excited with this. It is who I have been dreaming about the Wii from the start. Nintendo had said in the past that they were worried gamers would get too tired playing a Zelda title like this, but it appears they have had a change of heart. Miyamoto himself is all for the new idea stating, “Upon actually playing it, it’s more interesting this way.”

See I am more than the well-adjusted, able to converse on mature subjects with you person than I seem to be. Just below this well polished surface is my alter-ego. This person is, well, the antithesis of cool, the last person you want to get stuck in a conversation with. This person is my geek. The Magic, Dugeons and Dragons, Pirates, playing geek; the comic book collecting, Monty Python quoting, obsessive science fiction movie and series watching geek!
I struggle on a daily basis to keep my inner geek quite and suppressed from the world, but as normal she wants out to talk to the other geeks. She wants to sit everyone down and make them watch Big Trouble in Little China, and the entire Series of Trigun and Cowboy Beebop. She wants to watch Blade Runner, again, A Clockwork Orange, again and again.
She wants to watch every behind the scenes special about the making of the Lord of the Rings Trilogy and then kick your ass at Lord of The Rings Trivial pursuit and Star Wars Trivial Pursuit. She wants her own light saber and Rebel X-Wing Class Fighter, and yes she wants to go out and buy a DeLorean and drive exactly 88 miles per hour!

But for now I will stuff her back away from the world. If you find, like me, your inner geek trying to get out, I have found an extremely geeky site on Spaceship dimensions. Every single science fiction ship you could possibly want to compare with any other one are on there. From Babylon 5 to Firefly, from Star Wars to Star Trek, it is there my friend go enjoy!

Isn't it time to go home yet?

Are you serious, I still have three hours of just sitting here? The slow creep of time today is like trying to pour crystallized honey out of the container. It might work but you are going to sit there waiting forever. Am I waiting for something? Maybe not today specifically, but in the greater sense of things yes. School starts in a week and a half, and I am waiting on issues with money. Waiting to see everyone and how their summers’ have been going. It seems like I am always waiting for something to drop, like there is this ominous ball of doom just up around the corner barely attached to where it is dangling from. For most of my life I have lived cautious and worried waiting for the next big bad news to topple over me.

I am sick of it though. I don’t want to look back in 15 years and have regrets of not doing this or missing out on that opportunity. "I do not regret the things I have done, but those I did not do." If I am too scared to even ask people out to coffee where am I going to get? No where. I hide behind excuses of rejection, and many other things. As a good friend told me everyone at some point in their life gets rejected, usually a lot more than that, but everyone at least once, “Yes, even Angelina Jolie, Brad Pitt, hell even Hugh Hefner has been turned down for Christ sake.”

So I’ll throw caution to the wind, or at least try my best. I’ll walk a little taller, eyes forward instead of looking at the ground. That way when opportunity tries to blind side me, which would knock anybody else down, I don’t miss it and keep la dee dah walking along. Take some pride in myself and trust that I don’t need to hide behind the corners. I choose to live in the front of all that is going on around me instead of hiding from life on the edges terrified of what tomorrow may bring. I won’t be so scared of life but be happy in the fact that I have some great opportunities ahead of me, although uncertain they maybe. Life is worth embracing this is the only shot we get, here and now so why not make the best of it, even if it is tough to trudge through every now and then?

Live, god damn it, live every damn day and stop being so afraid.